Day Three: Sitting Politely

It I 3:20 pm, I am watching old Eddie Murphy stand-ups. I am laughing a bit more hysterically due to the fact that I smoked a little marijuana prior to lunch. It is the only way for me to eat without wanting to throw up. I have not had hunger for weeks. Each day is a conscious attempt to nurture my body with food. When my friend told me that they were stopping by, I asked if they could get me some Carl's Jr. That gave me 30 minutes to smoke and get hungry. I worked very well. My mother knows that I have done it again. I am not ashamed of it because of the sole purpose of doing it. I am waiting for a biopsy to be done. I was told that maybe there was a chance I have one today. I don't think that will be the case. I don't think that anyone really reads this thing for the exception of a couple of people. This has been therapeutic for me up til now. I am tired today, not feeling very social.